Call Me CrAZy

Seriously, you can call me crazy for this but I may not be alone on this one either. Sometimes I picture life just in moments not as something continuous. I just see these moments and I play them in my head like a scrapbook or something. Weird, I know... but I really have so many great photo album ideas because of it. Haha... yes, I will accept that this is a little weird of me but I don't care. It's fun! I really want to make a scrapbook of my life and put music to it. Haha... yeah I'll stop now.

So, even though I am terrible writer and have a hard time expressing what I am thinking in clear, concise phrasing, I am going to do my best (for the purposes of those reading and for my own sake...)!!!

I don't know if it is just me, but sometimes I envision my life so much differently than it is going! Coming to Florida was a huge step for me because I wasn't sure it was the "right" decision and I didn't want to be passing up what was going to be the last semester with some of best girl friends!!! And, yet I came and have had some of the greatest memories of my entire life. But being here has also made me take a huge step back and look at what I am doing with my life and wonder where it is that I am really going!

(So much for this not being rambled thoughts... but I am just trying to write as I think and I guess that it all really only needs to makes sense to me, right?) I don't know... I just really want to make something of myself! I want to have fun being single and living a true single life where I finish school and get a real job and am finally living on my own and doing my own thing.

I don't know what I am saying. I know what I am thinking, but I don't know how to describe it. Maybe I will try again when it isn't 1 am. Until then... have a great night.

REXY is for the SEXY!

(This was the funniest thing... it was dripping all over everything everywhere but it was amazing)

So all things considered, and the fact that I have gained 20lbs, I made an official decision! And, yes, Rexburg I am for sure coming back to you! R mountain I will climb you... Rigby Lake I will visit you... and my girls... we are having fun!

What to do?

So... I am back to square one and I don't know what to do!!! Honestly, I can't stand that I am so horrible at making decisions. So, I made the decision to go back to rexburg feeling great about it, but then something happend that made me really question my decision. I don't know what to do. Here are the pro's and con's
Pro's To Bing in Rexburg
1. kyle, brittany, jessi, kyrie, and lauren, along with others I may meet or forgot to mention here
2. It is close to utah for Maribeth's Wedding
3. I would graduate in summer instead of the fall
4. I would be able to go to church regularly
5. I've heard rexburg summers are SOOO fun!
5. I wont be there when it starts to get cold again
6. I wont be here
Con's
1. I will have to move back to CA in the fall
2. I could be giving up the opportunity of a lifetime
3. I will go up to school with little or no money

I guess the only BIG con is that that I wont have money but I guess I could get a job, right? I don't know what to do. I wish that decisions like this were easier. When I was sitting on the beach yesterday I really wasn't thinking about doing that in rexburg, but just couldn't wait to be in Hawaii! So, I guess I need to make the smartest decision for moving to Hawaii and that would be to go to school in the summer and then save money in the fall! As of right now that is my plan, but I am scared that something is going to change that and once again I will be back to square one! Yay for people who can't make decisions!!!

Rexy, Here I Come!

I have had suh a rough time deciding what to do... but I have finally decided that I am going to be back in Rexburg in the summer. It seriously just makes so much more sense! I will be able to be with my friends and graduate with my 2 year degree and all that other fun stuff! But, this means that I wont be there in the fall. I am going home for the fall and working to save up to go to HAWAII!!! Yay... seriously.. I am going to be living in paradise in only 9/10 more months! Okay... so it is a little far away to be counting down but I am seriously SOOOO excited for what the next year is bringing!

EVERYONE HELP ME!

So... I am having a very difficult time deciding what to do this summer. My choices are either to stay here, in Florida... OR I can move back to Rexburg and have tons of fun with everyone there. I don't know what to do. I am so confused!

1 More Month

I cannot believe that it has been 3 years since Chris died. I still think about him so often and wonder what things would be like for him now! He was such an amazing person and I miss him dearly!

Anyhow, I only have one more month left here! It is crazy to think how fast these past 2 months have gone by! I seriously have learned so much about life since I have been here. It's so weird because the people I thought I could learn nothing from are the people who I have learned the most from (at least so far)! I have made some amazing friends who have made this miserable experience ;) so worth it and I really am going to miss them! I love Florida, but I love California more and cannot wait to be back home! Only 38 more days!

Tuesday Rain

So... last tuesday Andrea picked me up from work and we went to the world showcase to visit a friend and the result...
we were soaked!!! but it was well worth it!